Hello beautiful people, here’s a little note from me. I unexpectedly broke my fibula at the ankle in two places a couple of weeks ago while I was hiking. It’s been a painful experience, which is to be expected. The unexpected thing though is that it’s given me a lot of me-time and the way I’ve been filling it.
I’m allowing myself to rest, give myself Reiki, mediate, and am grateful for all of the help I’m receiving. I’m also very creative! I’m writing poetry, editing poetry, working on ideas for chapbooks and poetry books and brainstorming inside my spiral-circle field. Even the creation of this website is the result of my break. Creating a website is an idea I’ve had for a long time, but now as I’m sitting with myself I’m actually doing it.
It’s a beautiful example of the spiral-circle field at work. At first it looked like my life was spiraling out of control, breaking my leg and being in a lot of pain. But the circle came immediately. I couldn’t walk off the trail, so I was carried. At the ER I received a temporary splint and a week later my fiberglass cast. People are kind and wish me well. My husband works mostly from home and is there for me. I’m being held in so many ways, thank you!
The cast makes it difficult to move around. I have a knee scooter, but my home has stairs and a raised landing downstairs, it’s like an obstacle course! So I tend to stay put except for needed movement (which is still a surprising amount of movement).
And this situation, which at first felt like a leg in prison, a life on hold, became the fertile soil, the circle, from which I was able to launch myself as self-caring and creative, the spiral. The field is the place where daily life with my cast meets my self-caring and creative self. It moves between stillness and movement. Rest and creativity. Frustration and joy.
I’m not saying I’m happy I broke my leg, I’m not! But given where I am, which I can’t change, there are also many gifts to be found. Not being able to run away from myself has its upsides when you’re open to it.
What situations have you been in that seemed purely negative, but turned out to be a soil from which you could grow? Don’t be shy and drop a line.
✿ Image of leg with cast adorned by flowers by Alessia Marzotto via Pexels.
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